omg, i was freaking irritated at my tutor just now, she put me in a NASTY mood for the rest of threequarters of the lesson. wtf, i couldnt stand it okay! i was telling her i'd be glad to get a b4 for chinese Os, and i wont retake at the end of the year and you know what the hell she replied?! "I'ld be even surprised if you can get a c6."

OMGGGGGGGG. WHAT kind of tutor actually says that?! HUH?!?! i was so freaking pissed off. before that conversation, i did this 4choices passage, and i got 2/10. and i actually DID put in effort to do it. it's just bloody disappointing. so aftr she said that freaking INSENSITIVE comment, i went to get both my book dictionary ad my small electronic dictionary. appearantly i didnt knowhow to operate it, so i used the book one, which i havent touched in ages, so it's really dusty. anyway, that's beside the point.

i checked for EVERY choice of words, and double checked everything. i was much better, 8/10. i had this SUDDEN urge to do FECKINGLY well in all my chinese papers, just to prove her wrong. rahhh, which seems so impossible..

it's not even like i wanna be horrible at chinese, i dont even know why i'm this bad! it didnt use to be the way until freaking p4, when my chinese standard started plummeting. i have no idea why too. it SUCKS to not understand every sentence laoshi is saying in class, and always being lost. i dont like it one bit. and i'm really scared she calls on me to read, everyone who had read has been so fluent, i'm not even a quarter as good as them! that's how much my chinese stinks. =(((((( i'm seriously sad about it, i wanna be good at chinese!

urghhhhh.

and finally got nic's present. hoohaa.