i cant believe i woke up at this unearthly hour on a SUNDAY. what the hell. 5am okay. =( just to walk tasha. my parents told me to try waking up this early so i could get used to it when school starts. since now we no longer have a maid, and when my dad's overseas. there's no one to walk her in the mornings, since my brother is in the morning session as well. and i have to get up extra early just to walk her.

omg i hate this frigging keyboard, it's so irritating, i have so many typos.

ít's new years eve, and i seriously cant believe how bloody fast time has past. one year just bloody flew by like that. it's amazing. and the very thought of having to take my Os next year can just scare the shit out of me. i dont even know where i wanna go after that. ohman..

i had a movie marathon myself ytd. =) lovewrecked, john tucker must die(again), little man, and the devil wears prada. they're all nice. =))

i still dont believe school's starting on wed. and today's sunday. rahhh. it's just too fast.



dont you know

Remember we were lovin' every single night
You gave me all the love I needed to survive
And each and every day I'd only dream of you
And every single thing we would do
Remember all the plans that we made
All the things we went through
Just one thing remains
You'll always be my baby

typed a long entry this morning, and it vanished. just like that.

dammit my brother is seriously a childish asshole, who deserves to die. for too many uncountable reasons. fucker.

UGH i've lost the mood to blog. maybe some other time.

AND my stupid moniter and keyboard is just bloody screwed.

lol, just realised this is my 200th entry.

i'm feeling so weak now. like, i need to put in more effort to walk, talk, stand up straight, eat,etcetc,. and it sucks. slept at 3 last night, was busy cramming nic's and joce's presents. and to think i started during extended studies. AND i wont be able to give it to them anytime soon, i'll be away for christmas from tmr. and there's so much left to complete! rah. lol, i dont even thinki can complete i before school reopens.

CRAP i just remembered still have heymath amath to copy neatly and draw the graphs! damn it.

haha this afternoon i was so desperately longing for a bunch of brightly coloured flowers and balloons fedexed to my doorstep. it's so out of the blue, right? but i just wanted to receive it so badly.. i think it was cos i was feeling low in the afternoon in the middle of tuition, and the mood lingered throughtout the afternoon, so i needed to cheer up! waited in the car while my dad and bro went to heartland mall to do some lasst minute shopping for he trip. like insect repellant, sunblock, vicks, all the stuff. packed and watched tv once i came back home and got on with their presents after that. i think my eyesight will increase by a couple of hundred degrees if i keep doing it.

omg i'm seriously tired now and i think i shall go to bed.

damn i'm seriously tired. walked ard the whole day doing my christmas shopping. i spent a hell lot!=(( have to start saving next year again. anyway, met joce in town at 11plus. went to wisma, then to taka, raffles city, suntec, raffles again, and back to taka. got my backpack! after taking forever for joce to chose hers, we went for dinner. my eyes were tired from the start of the day already. ytd evening i went to pasir ris with my family and me, my dad and brother cycled while my mum ran, again. and sth must have flew into my eye while i as cycling, cos when we went for supper, it started itching like crazy. and at night, my right eye was freaking swollen and BLOODY SQUINTY. i was freaking scared it stayed that way forever. this morning when i woke up it was still smallish and swollen. but when i left the house it was better.=)

i want the black bodynits one shoulder sleeveless mini dress!!

and now i'm having a bad headache. fantastic. =(

grrrrrr! i'm going CRAZY trying to solve emath heymath question 15a. argh! i think it's easy, but i just cant SEE IT! =(((((((((((bloodyshit.i can do the rest of q15 but just not the first part! and just fantastic, the next learning lab is on the 28th. and 16 looks so freaking complicating with so many numbers an words i decided to leave it alone first.

had dance practice today! for promotion day. =) i have to perfect it, i'm still bloody rusty at it. oh, lol, half the time, i was trying to think and think and think of this word that is sort of opposite to cliche, but not exactly. it's cos jana mentioned sth like she went on a mission trip, but she experieced an earthquake, so i was saying it was very sth, but a the point of time i couldnt think of the damn word. and i was SO convinced it bega with the letter "t", haha, adthey started saying touche, touchy, typical, etcetc. lol me and shihua were still racking our brains out after super long, it really frustrated me, couldnt stop thinking about it. then a couple of hours later, when we were packing up, she was saying, "i'll go home and search the dictionary." and asked for the meaning again, so i explained, then it hit me! that BLOODY word is IRONIC !!!!! i was SUPER confident it began with t! LOL, i felt so dumb okay! and dana and shihua were insisting the word isnt ironic. hahaha, but it was. lol! played this finger game and cherades after dancing.=)) then bused home with jana.it felt like sucha long time since i've last walked from the school to the opposite bus-stop. and they opended a new shop!=))) shared a waffle with jana.

chem tuition tmr. dreading it, as usual.sigh.

and christmas shopping with joce on thursay! =)yay.

gahh, shall go back to stupid question15.

i have yet to take my dinner. i'm still waiting for my family to come home with my subway sandwich. freaking hungry.

had chinese tuition in the morning, could barely get out of bed for it. after that, i had my lunch, and left for dana's. met annabel at the bus-stop, and as we were digging for our phones to call dana, she popped out of nowhere behind us across the street. lol. walked the east coast and cycled. =)))) the breeze was awesome. at one point it was drizzling, but we continued. didnt manage to cycle from the shop to one end, then to the other, and back to the shop. i think we took the longer end, cos when we have not reached the end, we cycled back, and it was just in time to return. bought popsicles and walked back through another condo. spent two hours at her house bathing and getting ready, and we rushed off to get a cab to cine to catch the holiday. reached at 4.40, thinking the show was at 4.40, but when we rushed up and saw, it began twenty minutes ago. but we still bought the tickets anyway, and went in. ooh, i LOVE the movie! i definitely wouldnt mind watching it again=))))) i love it love it love it! =) oh, and i think jude law's smile is so charming. i want to watch it now! i missed the first part. ahhh.

after the movie, i had to rush home SUPPOSEDLY to take care of my brother,cos my parents both have dinner appointments, only to find out that the house is empty, they all went to east coast. just amazing. and they're not home yet,..i'm really really hungry now.

my skin's all red now. we dumbly forgot to bring sunblock. lol.

oh yay they're home!=)

hm.today wasnt as uneventful as i thought it would be.

had chem tuition at 12.30. vacuumed the house and got started on the christmas presents again. then went to raffles city and had dinner at out of the pan.

finally got my long-awaited pants from animal. lol. and got the sweet escape as well. i'm still hunting for a pencil case and a backpack. =\ sigh. cant seem to find a right one anywhere.

twas supposed to go to my gram's but i'm too lazy. going tmr instead.

it's sweeter than sugar, softer than marshmallows, louder than thunder, faster than a blink. yet it's further than anything i can ever describe.

the sun's getting cold.

have i mentioned how much this sucks? uh huh YEAH a lot.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i'm so FUCKING tired and i'll be having chem tuition in approximately 15 mintues time. AND i had chinese tuition this morning. UGH. i'm so tired i'm so tired i'm so tired i'm so tired i'm so tired i'm so tired

=((((((((

woah man, you're so self-absorbed!

another dream. just like the rest. it has been over a WEEK alr. wth does it mean?

okay it's called a skytrain not skyride. but i thought a skytrain is the one at the airport? hm.

if only i could twist it into reality. it was sucha fucking nice dream.

went to sentosa with nic and joce today=)) i'm not any tanner! i think. =( met at habour front at 9. nic was earlier than i expected, haha what a surprise.

yeah, went to siloso beach first. it was so empty! except for a few people here and there. walked along the shore, and gave up, lol, cos there was nothing to do. went to this skyride place. we went up by the skyride and down by this go-cart like thing. i prefer the go-cart but the skyride was super sentimental=)) the trees were all below our feet. did it 3 times. the last time, there was these dragonflies buzzing ard. a LOT of them. hahaha, me and nic watched joce waving her hands all over the place, and flapping them frantically. hahahaha!

then we went back to siloso beach and changed to our bikinis in the hotel. but appearantly we had to freaking pay 22 bucks each to swim in their pool? wth. moneygrabbers. so we went to the beach in front and sat on the mouldy beach chairs which we pushed into the water, and just as we were settled down, the guy came up to us and demanded 30 bucks for sitting on their mouldy, lousy chairs. LOL, seriously, right there and then, i felt like bursting into laughter. how CHEAPSKATE can they get, really? hahaha, so we dragged the chairs back and left for palawan beach which was so much nicer.=) drifted in the sea and talked for quite some time, before bathing and changing.

ate at this food centre at the beach. then went to cinemania, where i scaremed til my throat still hurts like crazy, even now. it felt like being back in escape last year on the viking where me and joce sat in the freaking centre, yet shrieked like madasses. LOL. yeah felt the exact same way. like at one point i think no one in the theatre screamed, yet i was still scared out of my wits. and because there were 3 of us, we took turns to sit alone, and i sat alone for the kids bedroom one. i thought there would be DOLLS, but there was only one hideous clown, which hung on the ceiling. haha.

then we went to vivocity. it's my first time there! i dont find it THAT amazing. i thought it would be. walked ard, couldnt find anything, lousy. so we packeted food from the foodcourt to the rooftop. is it called a rooftop? ahh, whatever. the open area. there was a live band! called string theory. it was good, so we bought the cd on the way out. sat there for 2 hours plus. both of them were so lethargic. =(

oh, halfway, my chem tutor called. he was at my house, getting ready for lesson, then when he called, i shouted, "SHIT, sorry sorry sorry!" damn, i felt fecking bad okay. =(((((( sigh. but he said nevermind. i thought he would be super pissed off. thank god.

yeah, left ard 7 plus. we're going to joce's house on tues to watch movies and swim and run(i think). =)

yeah! i'm planning to go for two classes of cardio tmr=DD i'm excited, though i highly doubt i'ld be able to drag myself out of bed in the morning. =\ i HOPE i'ld be disciplined enough to get up.

went to pasir ris park just now with my family. three of us cycled while my mum jogged. tasha was in my basket=) after half an hour plus, we headed to the mid summer night breeze cafe to have dinner. the embience was super nice.=)) the music and the sea. ate a HELL lot, i wanna shrink my appetite, but i just cant!=((

damn.

oh, and packed my room today. re-arraged the shelves and the study table. and packed my spare cupboard. got out all the old toys. most of them reminded me strongly of my childhood, so i didnt throw those. and i realize rosyth gives a LOT of stuff. lol i didnt toss those out too. i was super scared of the freaking DOLLS. dang. there were DOLLS and DOLL KEYCHAINS in there. it was when i was this small kid, and appreciated dolls, THAT WAS BEFORE I WATCHED THE STUPID CHUCKIE/CHILD'S PLAY. that stupid movie scared me like shit. so i ditched all my dolls. when i was 6-7? so today when my mum shoved the whole bunch of keychains to me, i caught sight of the eifel tower, so i grabbed it, when i realised i was clutching onto a STUPID DOLL. =((((( i shrieked and threw it back to her, and asked her to remove it. lol. but my cupboard is so much neater. =)

ohoh, we're prolly going to sentosa on wednesday.=) i just hope it doesnt rain...=\
gahhhhhhhhhhhh.

it makes me go, "WHAT?!"

sigh.

just had chem tuition. i was so tired, my eyes were barely opened. and i was supposed to have chinese tuition too, at the same time. lol. how did my arrangements get so screwed up? yeah, so my chinese tutor went home. thank god she came to tutor my brother too, so she didnt waste a trip. yeah, and i realised i'm pretty rusty with chem right now.

dang, i just went to the esprit eshop again and there's this black crossed halterneck that i LOVELOVELOVE, but i cant find it ANYWHERE! i went to raffles city, wisma, and united square's branch already. cant find it anywhere!=(

my aunt asked me out today with my cousin. dammit, i have to stay home or my brother would be home alone. and he's p5 alr. WTH?! not having a maid really SUCKS. ughhhhh.

oh! annabel stayed over the day before ytd. dana couldnt =((((((( we went to wisma and spent quite a while there shopping ard. she screamed so many times okay, that loser. haha! yeah i'm so happy with my purchases! yay i wanna shop some more. omg, this holiday i emtied out i think threequarters of my atm card. =((((((((( that's reallyreallyREALLY bad. but i need the stuff! =( i want to work again, but not some shitty job like last year. i just cant find the time too, anyway. i have to study, work out in the gym, help with the housework, blahblahblah, and i'm supposed to sign up for guitar lessons? huh. and it's already december. FANTASTIC. yeah, anyways. reached my house at ard 8plus. haha did a lot of crap. designed the CIAPS shirt=)) watched the princess diaries and snacked A LOT. man, i felt like a pig, just stuffing my face with food. oh, and created this WADDLY MILO we came up with. it's such a dumb name haha! it's ice cubes with LOADS of milo powder, bacon bitz, rainbow sprinkles, chocolate chips, honey(she added. HAHA! sounds gross right? haha, but it's nice!=D try it, lol. then went back to my room and took more pictures=D, talked, and tried on clothes. slept at ard 3. she's the FIRST person who came over and did not run away from tasha, who barks like crazy whenever ppl come over. i was impressed, haha! she said she used to own an alsation. cool=) yeah so in the morning, we had breakfast and walked tasha, before painting my anils, and she varnished off hers then she left at noon. and i cleaned my house and went for learning lab. =) ytd was empty..=(((( whoever i wanted to come didnt come.

yeah, then i went home, ate, then slept at 8.30! lol. twas dead beat. yet i'm still tired now. huh.

gah.

off for lunch.