ooh, i can change my dp agn! my comp's so on and off.

went to the gym today, intended to go for both body balance and combat, but neelima was late, so i shopped ard while waiting for her, and we went to the sauna while waiting for body combat to start. and i cut my knee while trying to turn over. i lost almost all my energy during the class. it's really draining. but that's good. =) and i realise that all the instrustors/tress have tops that say what class thier teaching. that's so cool. i like it=)

then went over to watch a movie before heading home. oh, and i sat the hanicapped bus twice! bus 12 and 147. it's my first time, haha. it's so spacious=))

hm. played badminton with my brother and walked tasha. my mum forced me to okay. cos why? he was BORED. what the hell? ugh. i dont like doing things unwillingly. it just makes me feel so crappy. i wouldnt mind doing stuff for people if i do it gladly and on my own will, but being MADE to? i hate that. a lot. =( ya, so i was in a lousy mood this evening, cos i hate zero intention to get all sweaty again. i just wanted to have a short walk with tasha and go up already and catch that's so raven. instead i had to stay for 45 mins playing badminton with my brother. wth. ahh nvm.

geog tmr. then i'm meeting the ciaps. =D sleepover, perhaps? i dunno yet. i hope so!=)

another long night.

another useless day. neither did i go to the gym, nor did any work. amazing.

i was laughing to myself just now when i browsed through the photos dana, annabel and i took the day before. ohh, i have a strong urge to go back to dana's sauna again! oh, went to the steam room with neelima ytd at the gym. i was less afraid, but i still dont like the BOOM!-ing sound when the steam is gushed out. and i was in a horrid mood by the time i was drying my hair, cos i itchy-handedly altered my shirt. =((((((( it's freaking NEW, and NICE, and i ruined it. it's WAY too short now, and my shoulders are just too frigging broad to wear it perfectly. =(((( i'm gna alter it again. after all, it's already ruined, and i look so FAT in it. so what have i got to lose? but i'll think abt how to alter it. i'll definitely remove the sleeves, though. so it'll probably be a spag or racer or tube, i guess.

and my comp's so fecking laggy, i would very much LOVE to smack it.

ugh.

i'm reading in her shoes. it's nice! i'm at the middle already. =)

i'm staying at the raffles hotel tmr and sunday to celebrate my dad's birthday. =) and i havent even got him anything yet. no idea what, actually.

i'm stuffing my face with candy everyday. =((((( that's bad. i shant eat ANY from now to christmas. =D yay.

and how do i bloody use the archive thing? i thought it's there already, but all the entries show. and it makes my comp lag like crazy. =(

spent half the day with dana and annabel! haha those asses. =D thought i was gonna be late, but turned out i was so early! the buses were on my side today. =) took 76 and 43. to dana's condo. again. it was my turn to wait for annabel (previously she waited a whole hour for me) but thank god it was just half an hour or so. walked to dana's condo and went up. and you know what were the first words dana said to us when she opened the door? "hi chickens!" hahahahahaha. i just find it so amusing. annabel, being the world's biggest PIG and kept finding food, and dana, being the world's fussiest person("eh, what else must i bring down ah?") took forever to get ready. haha! we sat on the chairs for quite a while, munching on snacks and talking. and within five minutes into the pool, it started raining. and we spent the first 4 mins to actually GET into the water, cos it was freezing. so we went to the sauna, where i felt like such an amateur again, fussing if i should bring my bag in, consisting of my phone and camera. haha! it's really hot in there, but i enjoyed myself talking to the both of them! after a really long time, went to play in the rain, skipping ard like little children. =D then went back to the sauna cos we were really cold. after another long time, went to bathe. and change. then ate from the vending machine, and went to the studio, where we took dozens of pictures.

then i went to junction 8 to meet my family for dinner and to watch HAPPY FEET, LOL! i was kinda reluctant at first, but i just went for the sake of going, but its quite good! covered my eyes at some parts, haha! it's funny and cute! and there's a medley of the oldies. it's nice=), go watch. FINALLY got to go shoe shopping with my mum!=D haha it's just charles and keith, but i'm satisfied! =))) got my heels and a member card. yay!

god, it's hard to keep my eyes open. shall go off now.

ugh, it felt so real. EVERYTHING felt so real. yet i know it was ages ago.

i slept for ard 5 hours straight just now after cleaning the house and eating my lunch. wow. i rmb at 3plus, my brother came barging onto my bed and rubbing his eyes for dunno what reason and persuading me to play monopoly with him. then to shake him off, i nodded and asked him for 5 mins more. then he came back, and i said, "at 4.05 okay?" and he came back and i said, "5.20" LOL and he came back again, but i think he said i shoved him away, and tasha too, cos he bro brought her in to scratch me? HAHA as if she would. =)so i think he kept the monopoly set cos i saw no trace of it. but when i was still drowsy on my bed, i caught a glimpse of the prepared set, with the money and cards etc ready on the floor. =(( i feel so bad. he's been wanting to play it for quite some time alr. hmm. i shall play it with him tonight if he still wants, haha.

me and nic at tll ytd.


















this is damn blurry cos i think i was laughing so much from the photos before this one. haha!





AWWWWW, my darling darling darling DARLING TASHA!

oh my gosh this asian kids festival thing is really tiring! although we're simply in charge of games, which i think is the easiest job. but it's freaking obscene wearing jeans for EVERYONE. what a damn LOUSY dresscode. i'm wearing pants tmr.=) and i feel that i've grown fatter, cos all i did was just eat and sit on the floor and play five stones. wth..

went to the gym this morning. intended to meet at 8.30 with neelima but that woman came at 9. so i ran first. then we went to the steam bath, in which i felt like such a noob, cos after 3 freaking mins we got out. HAHA! i didnt even dare step in first, the room looked so haunted. i think it's cause i saw this channel 8 drama show that a woman got murdered or raped in the sauna. so i made neelima go in first. lol. yeah then we decided to lie down, so she went across the room, but the moment her head touched the seat, there was the BOOM! and a sudden gush of mist, LOL and my heart jumped, i thought there were sound effects in there! HAHAHA. and neelima scuttled back to beside me. haha. then after a while i couldnt see a single thing and got scared and left. HAHAHAH. omg i'm such a LOSER, i swear. nvm! going in agn on tuesday, and i shall stay for at LEAST 10 mins. =))

oh! at the expo there's a clothes fair and a book fair, everything is so EFFING CHEAP, i went crazy man! hahahaha=))) i got a couple of shirts and a sweater. i wanted the bloody pullover but there wasnt my size. damn. and i got 3 books too! yay! for like what- 5 bucks each?! my god! =D ahahahah and made serana joce nelia wait for me for half an hour while i was happily choosing my books! i didnt even realise it was half an hour until serena came out to e grumbling and poking me asking me to hurry up. i wasnted to get more!=(( but she was impatient for FOOD, so i joined the queue to pay. yay!

oh man, thinking of another WHOLE day tmr of sitting on the floor to play five stones make me dread waking up. =(((( i have to feed and walk tasha, make my own breakfast, wash the wet area, wash my gym clothes and new clothes THEN only i can leave.=((((( dammit. sigh. and i ate so much for dinner i feel so freaking sinful=(, yet tmr i'm not going to the gym. it's too tiring. i've no energy for anything.

i need a new school bag! i cant seem to find one anywhere!=(((((i want a backpack, shoulder bags reallyreally SUCK. =( gah, i need one before the school year starts. it'll be hard to find. sigh.

you've got that something, what can i do?

what the hell did i expect? this kind of fucking shit happens to me all the time. bloodyfuck. fucking fucking fucking fucking shit.

oh, and guess what? my ipod spoilt after two days. wtf? i just bought it on sunday, and now i cant press the centre button. fantastic. went to wheelock today after working out in the gym with neelima, where we sorta talked a lot. oh, and before that, we bought this ice cream and i dripped it all over the place. felt like the world's clumsiest fool. haha, all over bugis, there will be this trail of ice cream following me ard. lol. and neelima and i kept laughing our guts out. ohman! embarrassing. and we went to cold storage to get a drink for the gym ( which i realised, in the car on the way home, i could've just gotten a refill at the gym. wth. ), we were making such huge fools out of ourselves. like laughing everywhere we go. heehee.

ah, . then after that headed to wheelock. i'm gg back tmr with the ipod BOX to get a replacement. i dont see the purpose of the box. and i didnt know it's impt. what if i simply threw it away? then? wth man.

goddamnnit, i'm in a horrid mood right now.

bastards.

i just unpacked to catered food to heat up, and i realized they ALWAYS gave fish ( the nasi lemak one cooked in the chinese style) and cooked the same way. =( why cant they change it? it's so boring eating the same food almost everyday.

BROKEN PROMISES. they suck! can you PLEASE not say sth when you dont mean jack, and lead me on? and THIS time, it didnt just affect me! DAMMIT. it's so selfish! omg i hate this so much. i just cant believe it okay. a couple of months back, i rmb CLEARLY how you bloody said this and that and in the END?! uh, THIS IS WHAT I GET. DAMMIT I JUST HATE TO THINK OF HER REACTION. I JUST CANT IMAGINE IT! IT'S SOSOSOSOSOOOOOO SELFISH! it's the popped-bubble kinda feeling. =(((((((((( omg i feel so GAHHHHHH. i just HATE this feeling! if it only affects me, hell, i'm USED to it! but this time it ISNT! okay?!dammit!omgifeelsomean! I"M BLOODY SORRY OKAY!=((((((((

and omg YOU! stop whatever the shit you think you're doing. it's irritating me a lot. what with all those stupid, UNBELIEVEABLE "sweet nothings" and the dumb things that you say, IT AINT WORKING! so just quit it okay. dammit. you can still have the fucking cheek to say, "that was a little too much, wasnt it?" UH, YES, MISTER, IT IS! what's your problem.

and when the hell is anything we planned going to happen?

gahh, and i have no freaking idea how to move my movies into itunes, and i'm going crazy trying to figure it out! can somebody help me?

everything is just getting on my nerves now, dammit.

sucking on a candy cane now.=)) bought the whole box filled with 60 candy canes with nic ytd at cold storage. supposed to brg to sch today, but i forgot. dammit, i was craving for it so badly during chem.

oh! got home and went to work on the presents straight away. without lunch! anyway there was no lunch. came back to an empty house. whatever. these days, i prefer it this way. yeah, continued until 6, when i went down to walk tasha. oh, walked her at 4 too, she was barking and whining like crazy in the kitchen. so after some time, i got damn annoyed and clicked on her leash and brought her down.

i dont know if i should go to the gym for the cardio class or work out on machines tmr. still deciding. i never went on the machines for an hour before, usually after i run on the threadmill, i'm tired already. i make sure i run at least 3km everytime. i try to increase by 100m every time. i'm at 3.4km now. i think its possible to fulfil my goal of running 5km straight! =D but it isnt the same as running on the road. it's so much easier, cos it forces you to keep running. and there's a nice workout ambience too. =)

oh! i LOVE bring it on all or nothing. it's so cool! is it the third one? it didnt show in the theatres. found it in video ezy. i watched the break up too. it's so funny! the way they argue.

she's so temperamental, i have no idea how long i can take it. i'm getting pretty fed up myself.

i feel feverish. no idea why.

oh! i watched step up alr! on sunday. it's good, but not as nice as take the lead. like, it didnt keep my eyes glued to the screen or sth. take the lead did. =)

went for cip briefing after school. it looks interesting. before that, me and joce headed to parkway. lunched at mos burger, then walked to the library and sat on the comfy seats behind the cafe. then the other threeniners came. LOL i think we must be feeling lame or sth, when the nlb briefer said, "they're little kids, be sure to have great responsibilty etc, etc." me and joce murmmered at the same time, "slap them all!" HAHAHA! and i think some time at the beginning of the breifing, i was deep in thought about joce's situation, and she was muttering sth about what the speaker said( trying to be witty, but failing, as usual),when i turned ard to face her, i think to tell her what i thought, when she said "ya, ya, you're going to ask me to shut up right?" or sth. LOL.

after the briefing, joce and i headed to the library to talk. spent about an hour plus there. at the kid's section. on the kiddy sofa. haha! and talked. haha, and when i was saying sth remoursefully, she slapped my face on both cheeks and went, "this is not the time to regret, steph!" LOL. stupid. HAH, and NOW she knows how i felt. poor thing. so, i came up with plan A and plan B, she didnt appreciate both plans! HAHA. but she burst out laughing, though.

learning lab's at 3 tmr. =\ i cant go to the gym before that now.

i want to watch material girls! although joce said she heard it's some bimbo show. haha.

ask me again. i wont let that chance slip by, i promise.

damming shit, i TOLD myself time and time again not to do it. BUT HELLO?! HOW CAN I NOT?! HUH HUH HUH? TELL ME! BLOODY FUCK, THAT WAS,(CORRECTION IS) MINE! YOU DONT JUST TAKE THAT AWAY FROM PEOPLE AND MAKE IT YOURS, YOU KNOW! WTF? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU FUCKING THINK YOU ARE, HUH? you are NOT, repeat, NOT ALL THAT OKAY! omg. i'm trying VERY bloody hard to ignore, ignore, ignore. but it's EVERYWHERE! you'd bloody hell feel the same if SOMEONE did that to you. you're bloody making it fucking hard for me to NOT do what i said i wouldnt do. okay, fuck that.

i'm going to the gym tmr in the morning. i hope i can wake up on time, i have tuition right after at 1. i want to run 3.4 km! if it's possible. i want to TRY!

ooh, i like our hair!!=))


photobucket's not irritatating today! lol. but i'm too lazy to upload the rest.

damn, i only drank one nike bottle worth of water the whole day, and a couple of sips from joce's one. there's no time to refill in extended studies? i think i'll be forced to concentrate in history, mdm hassan forces all of us to give her our rapt attention. which is good, i guess.

oh in ss, serena bloody sat behind me, and kept pulling out my hair. about like 4 or 5 times. wth? neelima too okay. LOL and i tried pulling out her ponytail for revenge, since she's right beside me, the stupid rubber band couldnt come off, so i punched her head twice. uhoh. that sounded violent,=\. would you call it a punch if i used my fist to knock her head? doubt it hurts though, she can bang her head on the wall and not feel a thing.

ack, there's physics spa tmr. i'm kinda nervous that i mess up. i NEED to do well for spa so i dont have to worry too much if i screw up my written.

joce came over after school. it was fun! too bad nic couldnt come. for god-knows-what reason. took 200++ photos. =D LOL and wore my nighties. and this sweater that i only wore once. i dont think it's gown-ish enough to be called a nightgown. and this sweater that i only wore once. i'll post pictures later. maybe. depends on freaking photobucket.

do i regret?

part of me wants it to be read.