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it just crumbled before my very eyes.and it hurts so much. i dont believe this. AHHH nvm. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.screwed up amath paper. GREAT. lost 10 shitty marks alr. not like i didnt study?! and i did so badly for emath paper! i HATE trigo, i just DONT KNOW how to apply the bloody formulas! school was pretty much uneventful, except for before dance, when i went ecstatic, jumping and shrieking all over the place. for that SHORT 3 HOURS. and that swelling happy balloon inside me popped. just like that. it's so sudden, i was just stunned, and speechless, went home right after. i was just so.. diasappointed. =((((((( i really had no mood for anything. planned to lie in my room and fall asleep and hopefully not get up. but i decided not to. diaried and sat myself in front of the tv. got up for dinner, and went back to watch. what am i doing..? i wish these kind of things wont get to me so easily. and i can just be like, "oh, okay." and get over it. with the snap of my fingers. HAH, it isnt that easy. it's just so WRONG to feel this way. curious -> happy -> elated -> disappointed/sad/miserable -> back to brooding.