hello! haha. i did a bit of physics hw. just started. i HATE pressure. boring, and i dont understand a shit. the relief teacher's lesson is sleepable. i just cant brg myself to pay attention in her class. i'll drift off to slp sooner or later. =
i LOVELOVELOVE BURN THE FLOOR!!! NICEEE! =)))) the seating arrangement SUCKED though. sat at the third row. it was up front. MUCH too front. =\ dont like. but it's so INTERESTING, all the dances combines together, mygod their all so HOT! what's that word? oh yea. SIZZLING! haha. our lingo. lol! they danced nonstop for ard 3 hrs. except for a 15min interval. it's FUN watching. i like! i really really really wanna take up tango. =( but it requires a partner. =( ohoh the music was so FREAKING LOUD, my ears are still numb. =( the floor shook and heart hear throbbed so much. i'm sensitive to noise.=((( covering my ears, while my mummy and aunt beside me didnt wince at all. wth. means i can never go clubbing?!

then we ate at marche. hahaha it reminded me of last june was i was dared to lick up that whole plate of all that crap food. lol. then we left. it's so soon. cos brother still has so much hw to do. wth. i NEED to go shopping.

ohoh you know what? today i looked at myself carefully. and i realised that i'm really FAT!!! my CHEEKS. ohgod. it's not that i'm aneroxic or whatever shit, but i AM. i really wanted to burst. i was DAMN pissed off and sad. i told my maid NOT to cook fried food for me anymore. and i shall try to skip lunch at least twice a week. but i'll confirm eat on mon tue wed cos those days i have dance and i can burn off all those fats. my mum told my maid to cook seperate for me, cos i dont wanna eat those fattening food anymore. =( like salad or sth. sigh. i know it's a LOT of trouble and i feelf REALLY bad, but i really have no choice. i shall skip recess too. =( it's a BIG sacrifice, but i seriously NEED to lose alotalot of weight. ugh. sickening. i'm REALLYREALLY scared i hit 50kg. =((((((

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory

Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

i cant help loving you. i want to stop. i dont wanna be another one, but. UGH. it didnt used to be THIS bad.