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10 March, 2006
7:53 PM
haha. Just now during chi tuition, i made up my mind. i'll run everyday of the hols. either in the morning or in the evening. at least once a day. so when my reopen agn, i'll be super fit and slim and toned! haha. I started just now. I ran ard my old primary school building to back home. I think i covered at least 2km. haha. =) when i returned home, I was perspiring like mad. haha. drank one cup of water and cooled down for 5 mins before i walked tasha.
I walked another route, since someone followed me the last time. haha. i dare not walk there agn. Anyways. I walked tasha to the playground. where manymany things happened. Tons of memories there. I sat down on the platform where i first learnt to play king's castle. Gen taught us. I sat there and thought. picturing the old times agn. It was also the playground gen left us so abruptly, letting us think that it would be the last time we would see her ever. me and nic were there. we sat under the pyramid in silence for very long, sad like hell.
I rmb when we learnt that gen was leaving, we wanted to spend as much quality time as we could with her. alomost everyday after school, we would go to either joce's or mine and gen's hse playground. =((((( i miss it so damn much. ohgod. Now, i can still rmb the exact same feeling. we did stupid things, sick stuff, complained like hell abt the sun, gossiped like mad, played "laughing game" , truth or dare or just talked. omg.. i miss it so much!!! i would give anything just to rewind time and go back to THAT period. arghh. i videoed or dares and recorded our truths. on my phone. i rmb how we were so reluctant to confess our answers to gen's sick truths. or do those dumb dares we were made to do. omg. i want those times back. so much. and gen edited the song rockabye baby. "Rockabye baby, on the tree top, when the wind blows, the stephy will DROP!!" and push me off the rocking springy horse that i was riding. She videoed that on her phone when we first when to that playground after school when i walked her home. I videoed HER on my phone the 2nd time. and pushed her off the springy horse too. and i videoed everyone too. nic and joce on the swings, joce swinging anyhow-ly and nic swinging super ultra high. Joan on another rocking springy animal, fanning herself with her hand, a scrunched up face cos of the sun. us making fun of what ppl wrote on the playground. i rmb joan and gen snorting at the name "Hongz-squared" Gen was saying "hong hong" in that girly voice. hahahaha. then we'll play catching and fisherman's net and all those childish games. i rmb i partnered joan for fisherman's net and since gen joce nic were uncatchable, me and joan whisper whisper and decided to just split up to catch them. god. so fun. and we were screaming like shit. and gen with her long winded way of playing open numbers. and we complained that she was so "lor-soh". hahaha. gosh. i miss it sooooo much. no words can describe how bad i want those times back. seriously. i was tearing already, so i got off the platform and walked away before i started crying.
but well, people changed, things happened, situations are different. nothing is the same anymore. that's so fucking sad. i really miss it. The day's of sec2. being in 2/5. the loudness of aisha's voice yelling "Good morning" every morning when everyone entered the classroom. my perfect window seat, which i got super excited whenever i breeze blew. crapping with jana non-stop. teasing her. choreographing steps for cheerleading and zany with her. mrs tan and her lameness. the almost stress-free days which we had. staying back everyday to do dramatisation. having the whole of the classroom to ourselves. eating at spc for an hour plus before going back to school to do dramatisation. we will write our whole script on the board and erase cos we feel guilty if anyone enters. we'll video ourselves acting and laugh over it. and continue munching on snacks that we bought from spc. i still kept the ahloke script we acted out for lit. i read through it today. =(((
and the period gen was leaving, we also always go to joce's condo everyday to play. her playground is the BEST. when we played king's castle, gen would use the ladder. nic would use the fireman pole. joce and joan would climb up by the slide. me, i'll use the staircase. cos it's the easiest. and i rmb how we'll yell out in satisfaction when we got onto the platform successfully. ohgod. and we wrote the song "Without Gen" To the tune of billy S. by skye sweetnam, Gen's favourite song then.
and when we go out, gen will always be fickle and take a whole fifteen minutes whether she wanted to buy sth, and then NOT buy it. i rmb the impatient groans we made. and when we took neos, gen will mess some of them up and then refuse to take it cos we dont want. damn!! i want those times back now! plus, that time you were nobody to me. i wasnt sufferring like how i did for eight months plus until now. it was so carefree, those days. our shopping trips, our photoshoots, our games, etcetc. everything was fun. everything. i wanna re-live last year. go back in time.
And during gen's farewell party, after we sang the song "without gen" and "gen loves boobs" to the tune of barney, i rmb how we cried like shit in the PANTRY. and we went to the toilet to cry somemore. hugging everybody. begging gen NOT to go. the sleepover. omgggg.=(((((((((
and the day that gen left. 1st of july. we cried like mad too in the morning when we came to bid us goodbye. sang "without gen" for the last time. we skipped assembly, crying in the toilet. then outside the classroom where gen had to leave already. then we stayed back after school to brood.
then we were feeling like the pits that day, having suicidal thoughts. that's where the running away plan came in. when we were depressed like hell. the our fake happiness to EVERYONE. the things we did to FORCE laughter out of our mouths. Joan dancing during art with balloons to cheer herself up. bobbing me joce and nic sleeping heads with those balloons. singing to mdm seah's stupid "artistic" music. omgggg.
then finals, streaming. how we slogged like shit. there was one day i went over to joce's hse to mug while using the gym and swimming. her stuffing the mini cornetto into my mouth while i was crossing the street. laughing like hell all the way to her house. non-stop.
there's no use denying that our clique drifted. cos we did. like mad. it's just not the same anymore. EVERYTHING. i'm much closer to joce and nic now. we bonded moresince we're in the same class. but i DO miss gen and joan like SHIT. =((((( i miss the way i lived my life before i you walked in. ohgod. =((( i want it back. i want originalffis back. i want 2/5 back. i want art, music, dnt and home econs back. i want 2005 back. but good things never last. ever. i gotta deal with it. this STUPID CRUEL fact of life. I wish, that, for JUST ONE DAY, i could be a 2/5iver again. just one day. that's MUCHMUCHMUCH MORE than enough to make me be over the moon, jumping for joy. but it'll never happen.
Life's never fair.
I walked another route, since someone followed me the last time. haha. i dare not walk there agn. Anyways. I walked tasha to the playground. where manymany things happened. Tons of memories there. I sat down on the platform where i first learnt to play king's castle. Gen taught us. I sat there and thought. picturing the old times agn. It was also the playground gen left us so abruptly, letting us think that it would be the last time we would see her ever. me and nic were there. we sat under the pyramid in silence for very long, sad like hell.
I rmb when we learnt that gen was leaving, we wanted to spend as much quality time as we could with her. alomost everyday after school, we would go to either joce's or mine and gen's hse playground. =((((( i miss it so damn much. ohgod. Now, i can still rmb the exact same feeling. we did stupid things, sick stuff, complained like hell abt the sun, gossiped like mad, played "laughing game" , truth or dare or just talked. omg.. i miss it so much!!! i would give anything just to rewind time and go back to THAT period. arghh. i videoed or dares and recorded our truths. on my phone. i rmb how we were so reluctant to confess our answers to gen's sick truths. or do those dumb dares we were made to do. omg. i want those times back. so much. and gen edited the song rockabye baby. "Rockabye baby, on the tree top, when the wind blows, the stephy will DROP!!" and push me off the rocking springy horse that i was riding. She videoed that on her phone when we first when to that playground after school when i walked her home. I videoed HER on my phone the 2nd time. and pushed her off the springy horse too. and i videoed everyone too. nic and joce on the swings, joce swinging anyhow-ly and nic swinging super ultra high. Joan on another rocking springy animal, fanning herself with her hand, a scrunched up face cos of the sun. us making fun of what ppl wrote on the playground. i rmb joan and gen snorting at the name "Hongz-squared" Gen was saying "hong hong" in that girly voice. hahahaha. then we'll play catching and fisherman's net and all those childish games. i rmb i partnered joan for fisherman's net and since gen joce nic were uncatchable, me and joan whisper whisper and decided to just split up to catch them. god. so fun. and we were screaming like shit. and gen with her long winded way of playing open numbers. and we complained that she was so "lor-soh". hahaha. gosh. i miss it sooooo much. no words can describe how bad i want those times back. seriously. i was tearing already, so i got off the platform and walked away before i started crying.
but well, people changed, things happened, situations are different. nothing is the same anymore. that's so fucking sad. i really miss it. The day's of sec2. being in 2/5. the loudness of aisha's voice yelling "Good morning" every morning when everyone entered the classroom. my perfect window seat, which i got super excited whenever i breeze blew. crapping with jana non-stop. teasing her. choreographing steps for cheerleading and zany with her. mrs tan and her lameness. the almost stress-free days which we had. staying back everyday to do dramatisation. having the whole of the classroom to ourselves. eating at spc for an hour plus before going back to school to do dramatisation. we will write our whole script on the board and erase cos we feel guilty if anyone enters. we'll video ourselves acting and laugh over it. and continue munching on snacks that we bought from spc. i still kept the ahloke script we acted out for lit. i read through it today. =(((
and the period gen was leaving, we also always go to joce's condo everyday to play. her playground is the BEST. when we played king's castle, gen would use the ladder. nic would use the fireman pole. joce and joan would climb up by the slide. me, i'll use the staircase. cos it's the easiest. and i rmb how we'll yell out in satisfaction when we got onto the platform successfully. ohgod. and we wrote the song "Without Gen" To the tune of billy S. by skye sweetnam, Gen's favourite song then.
and when we go out, gen will always be fickle and take a whole fifteen minutes whether she wanted to buy sth, and then NOT buy it. i rmb the impatient groans we made. and when we took neos, gen will mess some of them up and then refuse to take it cos we dont want. damn!! i want those times back now! plus, that time you were nobody to me. i wasnt sufferring like how i did for eight months plus until now. it was so carefree, those days. our shopping trips, our photoshoots, our games, etcetc. everything was fun. everything. i wanna re-live last year. go back in time.
And during gen's farewell party, after we sang the song "without gen" and "gen loves boobs" to the tune of barney, i rmb how we cried like shit in the PANTRY. and we went to the toilet to cry somemore. hugging everybody. begging gen NOT to go. the sleepover. omgggg.=(((((((((
and the day that gen left. 1st of july. we cried like mad too in the morning when we came to bid us goodbye. sang "without gen" for the last time. we skipped assembly, crying in the toilet. then outside the classroom where gen had to leave already. then we stayed back after school to brood.
then we were feeling like the pits that day, having suicidal thoughts. that's where the running away plan came in. when we were depressed like hell. the our fake happiness to EVERYONE. the things we did to FORCE laughter out of our mouths. Joan dancing during art with balloons to cheer herself up. bobbing me joce and nic sleeping heads with those balloons. singing to mdm seah's stupid "artistic" music. omgggg.
then finals, streaming. how we slogged like shit. there was one day i went over to joce's hse to mug while using the gym and swimming. her stuffing the mini cornetto into my mouth while i was crossing the street. laughing like hell all the way to her house. non-stop.
there's no use denying that our clique drifted. cos we did. like mad. it's just not the same anymore. EVERYTHING. i'm much closer to joce and nic now. we bonded moresince we're in the same class. but i DO miss gen and joan like SHIT. =((((( i miss the way i lived my life before i you walked in. ohgod. =((( i want it back. i want originalffis back. i want 2/5 back. i want art, music, dnt and home econs back. i want 2005 back. but good things never last. ever. i gotta deal with it. this STUPID CRUEL fact of life. I wish, that, for JUST ONE DAY, i could be a 2/5iver again. just one day. that's MUCHMUCHMUCH MORE than enough to make me be over the moon, jumping for joy. but it'll never happen.
Life's never fair.
